Half a Week Adrift


Your day slips along the week, across the years

The only change in your stasis, variation for the tears.


The canvas woof has warped:

All happenings now, without your

Thoughts or voice, thread fresh

Detail, colour, texture to the tapestry

Evolve a patina slowly unfamiliar to

your timeless ambered constancy

      We lose you more, lose more of you


Fixed still against life’s chaos

A reversed cinemagraphic* state

Relevance fades to shaded

Anachronism gilded with nostalgia, 

Straining memory’s moorings;

Defining our difference

      As the day slips across the week.


How often in our grief we call you to us, yes we would.

And yet, how seldom do we call to those we could.


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About This

Prompted by the realization that my sister's death, which happened 3 years ago on a Wednesday, is anniversaried this year on Sunday. So, a reflection of the slow erosion over time of the connectedness that roots in intimate knowledge of one another’s truths, experience, our living.

It is a truth about all deaths, all the separations, forgotten friendships, distressed relationships, displaced family;

All the living lost to time and distance and our failure to nurture.

Or heal.

The longer we remain disengaged, the more the past slips across the calendar, dies to us.

  • A cinemagraph is a photographic image in which most of the picture is a still, but one highlight element is in motion. What I call here “A reverse cinemagraph” would have all in motion, except for the one highlight element, which would be static.
 © Philip Knight 2018